What happens when you become conscious of your incompetence?

I am a relatively new leader of people, at least in the formal reporting relationship sense.  I have read books on leadership, but yesterday was my first training class on the subject.  I’ve always considered myself to be decent at leading and working with people.  I know how to get stuff done with a group of people and I’m pretty good at developing relationships.  But in the first 10 minutes of my class I realized that I’m not that great of a leader and that I’m doing a lot of things wrong.  It was eye opening to say the least and I had a moment of sadness and empathy for the people I am responsible for leading. In a list of about 40 things that leaders should not do, I probably do about half of them.  Suddenly I was conscious of my incompetence and I knew that the things I see as issues in my team, are really a reflection of me and it’s my responsibility to correct it.

Here are my top offenses:

  • Being too lax
  • Tolerating poor performance
  • Failure to set clear performance goals
  • Failure to inspect what I expect
  • Failure to develop people
  • Failing to give recognition
  • Not listening

Ugly, yes.  Now I’m faced with a choice.  Change or ignore.  I’m motivated to change and so the hard work begins